LMP July 26, 2006

We were hoping so badly that this would be the month our prayers would be answered!!

First week in August 06 -

The week our angel was concieved. Although we did not realize it yet!!

August 25th 2006-We're PREGNANT!!!

Mommy did her normal pregnancy check with her fertility treatments it is pretty routine
I didnt even think it would be positive
Until I saw those two faint pink lines apear
I was over the moon with excitement but was afraid to admit it 
Afraid it was wrong
Did 3 tests at home then called the fertility clinic to have a bloodtest confirm my hopes

Called back that afternoon and said "Terralynn, looks like your going to have a baby!"

I cried and fell in love with you in that instant in time.

How lucky were we to have you

Sept 18th 2006  1st Ultrasound!!

We were so excited to finally get to see you 
I was so nervous at first afraid it was to good to be true
But then we saw your tiny little body with a heart fluttering steadily and I knew things were ok 
Blindly I relaxed and though you would be with us forever!
We didnt know at that time if you were a girl or a boy 
But I was just so happy you were so healthy that I didnt care


7 weeks- Sept 18th 06

I began making plans for your arrival, and your future
Already, Dreaming of you in my arms

November 23rd 2006 

Mild cramping, slight backpain,
No bleeding or signs other than that 
I had heard your heartbeat a week before and my doctor assured me your heart rate was normal and I was growing at an acceptable rate
I grew nervous with the backpain and called the Dr.
Thinking I was over reacting 
So did he I believe

I went in and lay on the table to get a quick check
Everything looked good baby 
My tummy was huge and you looked to be growing well
I was not dilated nor did I show any problems or bleeding 

He was about to send me home and I laughed 
Until he decided to check your little heart
But there was nothing but silence in the room 
I panicked but figured you were just moving to much to find it 
I had felt you move that morning I thought
But there was no heartbeat 
At that moment My heart fell to pieces

But I still had hope that the ultrasound scheduled for an hour later would show you being feisty and kicking 
I am so sorry Mommy let you down bubbha

November 23rd 2006 - hour after DR appt

I saw you lieing still on the ultrasound screen
with 10 little fingers and toes
Silent
And sleeping peacefully

I screamed in grief and prepared to lose my baby
Still not knowing I was losing my son



How it broke mommy's heart to see you so still

November 24th 2006  Arrive In the Hopital for Induction of labour  

I still didnt believe this was happening to us
I was afraid you were still alive and a Mistake had been made

November 25th 2006-  ITS A BOY!!

Our precious son is born to be an angel

Almost 4 1/2 months into My pregnancy
Almost Half Way There you were taken from us

At 2:30 AM this day, after 7 hours of labour,  You came into our world silently sweet son, and took a piece of my heart and soul with you
Then you left me here to grieve your loss
I will never forget you Kristopher
Please never forget mommy and daddy
Our hearts were broken but you still live on in us.
We will hold you someday in heaven angel.
xoxo

Kristopher should have been born alive into our arms..
May 3rd 2006..

Does Anyone Know? 
Unknown Author

Does anyone know what today should be?
Anyone else or is it only me?
Does anyone know how great today would have been,
If you would have come now, instead of then.
It seems people forget; to them it is just another day.
But for me, I just can't think of it that way.
My heart aches and I can't stop the tears. I keep on wishing that you were still here. Others just don't understand why, today, I mourn.
Today is a special day;
the day you should have been born