A Time To Believe





To believe is to know that every day is a new beginning.
It is to trust that miracles happen,
and dreams really do come true.



To believe is to see angels dancing among the clouds,
To know the wonder of a stardust sky
and the wisdom of the man in the moon.




To believe is to know the value of a nurturing heart,
The innocence of a child's eyes
and the beauty of an aging hand,
for it is through their teachings we learn to love.


To believe is to find the strength
and courage that lies within us.
When it is time to pick up the pieces and begin again.
To believe is to know we are not alone,
That life is a gift and this is our time to cherish it.



To believe is to know that wonderful surprises
are just waiting to happen,
And all our hopes and dreams are within reach.
If Only We Believe. 

Author Unknown

If you were to ask me if an unborn child could have a legacy?
My response would be - OF COURSE!All life has meaning on this planet, Even the unborn ones. 

I always felt that since my first pregnancy.
Going through the infertility, and preterm labours, and now this loss of life.
I believe life is such a gift.  A new life given to you is an honour.  Not an inconvenience.

I never felt a family wasn't worth fighting for.  And still don't.
But hearing this from me, if you have not gone through it-
I know you may not understand my passion for my children.
When you fight this hard to obtain a family. 
You cannot help but love, and hold onto them with such intensity. 
You are afraid to let go, afraid it will never happen to you again.
Fear you will never receive this gift, to grow inside you, and protect again.
Because pregnancy has been such a battle to obtain-
This loss of life is all the more devastating.

How can you take his life for granted.
At the stage that Kristopher was when he died, I read that they will touch their face, suck their thumb, grab their hands, and jump, among other things.
They are very much a life.
Very much the beginning of a beautiful little child with a beautiful mind.

Kristopher was given to us by God for the soul purpose of showing us what true love is, and how death can never take it away.
For making Rod, and I, more aware of our children- by showing us how painful it is to lose one. 
We cherish all of them even more since this happened.

We have had many discussions since this about the possibiliy of the soul living on.
Is death the end of life, or is it just the beginning.

I loved Kristopher before I ever held him in my arms- He Is My Son

You can love an unborn child just by having them grow inside your body.
Realizing the hopes and dreams you have for their future
I realize the amazing thing, only my body can do. 
Bring life into this world!
My heart aches, that I wasnt able to continue this gift for him. 
He has changed us!

He is an amazing gift to our life, one that can never be replicated. 
One that still lives in my heart.

He has opened my eyes to the possibility of eternity.
One that I had never thought of before. 
That I took for granted on a daily basis.
Because I believe Kristopher is still with us, and was always meant to be a part of our lives.

I regret nothing, and could never feel upset because he lived in me.
But never breathed air into his lungs the day he was born into our world. 
Although, I wish with all my heart he was still here.
I could never change having him touch my life so deeply just by choosing me to be his mother. 
I feel honored to have been given an angel as a son.

His legacy is to change your lives and touch them 
The fragility of life is not something you contemplate on a daily basis.
He came to this world, to tell you and I to wake up, and realize how lucky we are to have those which we hold dear in our lives. 

Always Cherish IT
Always Realize IT
Because tomorrow they may be gone.
Tomorrow is to late to say I love you, or I'm Sorry

Remember this when thinking of our little boy!

Because that is Kristopher's Legacy 
To make us all better people who cherish life
Because he fought to live, but wasn't given the chance to win.
We take for granted, this gift we have all been given.

He succeeded in his legacy - He has already changed his Mommy forever!


A Thought

You came into our lives,
grabbed pieces of our hearts,
and left with them still clutched in your fist.
No time for goodbyes,
no knowledge of your destination.
I think that maybe that is the way you wanted it...
Just “Bye, see ya later, I love you”
Instead of the racking, screaming sorrow...that would have been.
(Your tolerance for tears was never great ...)
I wonder if maybe WE planned it this way …before ...
To have this life
...this loss
...at this time
so that we would have this stabbing pain-
to know the joy of love...
to have this gut wrenching jolt of death-
to know the wonder of life.
Perhaps you only came to us, with us,
so that we would see what we have
instead of thinking that all we have is
what we see.
Perhaps your purpose
was only to lift the veil
and force us to look at the light.

©~Sandy Goodman from her book
Love Never Dies

There are only two ways to live your life:
 One Is As Though Nothing is a Miracle;
 The Other Is As Though Everything Is a Miracle 
-Albert Einstein